Lazy Ant is Lazy

26 Nov

Current Status: Lazy

Food Consumed: Too lazy to eat

On The iPod: Too lazy to check

Word Count: See above

Writing is tough.

It’s tough to try and focus your mind on the task, especially after a long, hard day having stared at a computer screen for 8 + hours. It’s tough to get into the right mood to write a certain scene when you’re dog-tired and have the attention span of a two-year-old because of this fact.

Sometimes, trying to force those words on the page – virtual or otherwise – is too difficult a task to even contemplate, little own actually do; so you give up for the day, retire the pen and the paper, and the laptop to its spot on the desk, and give into the laziness consuming you.

That’s basically what I’ve been doing for the past week: letting the laziness win.

This would be slightly understandable, had I been slaving away in the office like usual. But I wasn’t. I was on holidays – time away from work and the stress and the mental exhaustion that plagues me on a near-daily basis. So I should’ve been writing up a storm, when what I was really doing was sitting on my lazy behind, doing diddly-squat and whinging about doing diddly-squat.

When I’m writing, I’m happy; but when I’m not writing, I’m pissed off – with myself, no one else. I feel like I should be writing a substantial amount every day – and by substantial I mean at least 1,000 – so when I don’t, and still haven’t achieved this for three days in a row (for example), I’m downright ropable!

I have no one to blame but myself for this sheer laziness that has taken over of late. I know I can break through the barrier if I force myself to do it: actually sit there and make myself stay until I reached my day’s goals. Like everything in this life, though, it’s easier said than done.

The problem I have now is that the ‘Poppy’ story has just entered into the murky middle stages – the part where I always struggle, no matter how bright the beginning seems, nor how vividly I can picture the end scene.

The middle section of a novel is where it can so easily all fall apart at the seams. If you don’t have as strong a centre as the rest, then you don’t have a story. Period.

Right now, ‘Poppy’ doesn’t have a story, essentially. She has a wonderful, fluid beginning that I’m proud of; a strong, rounded voice, and characters I have fallen in love with – but she doesn’t have a backbone to speak of.

Hence my frustration and subsequent attack of the lazys.

Last night I decided to scrap my chapter divisions in ‘Poppy’ and go with a bulk block of text. As the structure is a fragmented one, anyway, I think this should sit just as well – if not better – in the long run.

I even managed to get a few words down in the notebook, and transferred some of them into the ‘Poppy’ word doc.

I remember breaking the 35,000 word-barrier at some stage, though I’m too fearful/lazy to check exactly how much I did manage to write yesterday. I know I’m nowhere near the 50,000 words I wanted for the end of November, and nowhere near the end of the first draft of ‘Poppy’. {sigh}

What have I learned, then?

That I’m lazy, and that I’m lazy.

Some things never change.

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6 Responses to “Lazy Ant is Lazy”

  1. LadyAuTwilight 26/11/2009 at 12:23 pm #

    I know what thats like though I would love to know what its about and read it. Just remember, every good story starts out with bad writers block. especially the writer’s block called Laziness! 😉

  2. thewritingant 26/11/2009 at 1:40 pm #

    Ah yes. Laziness + writer’s block = story death. Or at least, a good, long stalling. I’ll get there in the end: I’m determined. Plus, I have friends who will literally throttle me if I don’t give them a resolute ending (a good thing, I assure you – just another form of inspiration to keep up the writing!).

    If you would like to take a peek, I shall post a snippet from the beginning to give you a taste of what ‘Poppy’ is all about. 😉

  3. Cassandra Jade 26/11/2009 at 4:31 pm #

    Sounds tough. I hate when I get caught in the middle and am unsure of how to progress. I tend to get caught in a procrastination attack and work on other things until I come up with a solution. Wishing you luck getting back on track.

    • thewritingant 26/11/2009 at 10:17 pm #

      Thank you, Cassandra. 🙂 I tend to go away & work on other things as well, but I’m trying a new tactic now of pushing myself just to write – even if half of it gets scrapped once the first draft is over, the most important thing is to get it finished. That’s the plan now, at least.

  4. Grumpy 14/02/2010 at 8:12 pm #

    wow! when I read this so many lightbulbs go off because I recognise everything that I do and feel in the writing process. Although I have not been half as dedicated as you1

    • thewritingant 22/02/2010 at 8:29 am #

      I’ve been quite lazy lately (surprising, no?) :p I’m just starting to get back into the swing of it all. Editing seems to make me retreat into my shell a bit. Thanks for the comment (even though it’s taken me forever to answer it). 🙂

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